Serenity Prayer (from a longer poem by Reinhold Niebuhr)
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
Okay, I’ve been away for a while, but I think I’m back now.
The last few weeks have brought a variety of tough paradigm shifts my way. We had our first Mother’s Day without our Mom, two of my friends lost parents, I watched my sister go through a life-changing move, and I was confronted with a difficult separation from someone I love very deeply. Add to that the fact that my beloved’s work has been stressful, and, well, I’ve been a little blue.
I just haven’t felt like writing, or even reading, blogs. I apologize to those I regularly follow for my inattention. I’ll try to read through what I missed over the next few weeks. And I’ll try to get back on track with my retirement planning and Future Challenge posts.
After all, It hasn’t been all dreary over the last few weeks. We went on our first paddle of the year last weekend (with one of our grandsons), and I was able to be there for his end of the year scouting event, which was really nice.
This last activity was oddly calming. I think that’s because it took us completely away to something new, and reminded me how many ways people of all ages find for self-expression. Each artist happily fielded questions and shared perspective on process and technique that were really inspiring and fascinating.
We really loved some of the work, and even brought a few small pieces home. Other work didn’t catch our fancy, even when the artists themselves did. All in all, I realized that the creative process – whatever it is – is a very healthy and healing thing, and that I won’t really feel better until I can overlay my lingering sadness with some new growth. To change the things I can.
I have a few projects on the table – some gardening that needs attending, some small home repairs that will boost my feeling of accomplishment, and some work on a memory book and slideshow for an upcoming 50th reunion of my elementary school class.
I know that doing each of these things will bring me a little joy. It won’t make the sad stuff disappear, but it will give some balance back to my universe, and help me to appreciate the many wonderful things and people around me.
It’s very grey and a little humid outside today, but the birds in my yard are singing and swooping around like they’re planning a party. Life is a balancing act, and every day contains a little sadness and a little joy.
I’m off to find the joy.
Yin-Yang symbol from Wikipedia
Glass by JMB Glass, Dish by Matthew Tell pottery